SEMINAR II
"I WILL"

SEMINAR III
"I AM"

 

"SANCTUARY" IS DEDICATED TO

 

The people of St Lucia.
Your strong independent nature
and passion for living is truly
inspirational!!

It's quite amazing how one's viewpoints, attitudes and expectations of life can change over periods of time or in various environments.

Most of the work you are about to read occurred during my stay on one of the most beautiful islands in the world, St. Lucia, which is located in the West Indies between St. Vincent and Martinique.

Part of my heritage and roots come from this island, and during my last vacation, I fell in love with with tropical everything, including lifestyle, vegetation, festivities, and of course, the beautiful people. So i moved here.

Of course, all that glitters...So...having experienced trying to adapt to this rather unique culture, i found myself frustrated and battleing more and more each day against the grain of what took centuries to develop.

"It is said that within every adversity lies a seed of equal or greater benefit." I applied this theory to my life and began writing profusely as a form of therapy and release to better my transition to my new environment.

Extraordinarily, it seems that my personal pains have been inspirational and have seemingly improved my outlook and abilities in life in general. Thank You St. Lucia!

If asked which attribute I posses that i found to be most enhanced, I could not answer.

However, I could tell which personal trait i have changed for the better during my stay here with a quote from Abraham Lincoln.....

"It is better to remain silent and thought fool than to speak up and remove all doubt"

Foreward

St Lucia blossoming
Her youth aspiring
to creating
incorruptible
art
untainted
by party politics
Dead dinosaurs
Decaying in enchanted forest.
Flowers spring
from seeds sown
in the spring of youth

Good Luck Louisy
-Llewellyn Xavier

Special thanks to those who contributed to the completion of this compilation of my thoughts.
Thanks Jocelyne, Joanne, and Llewellyn Xavier

 

 

 

Living in Futility….What if???

What if…what if…. You existed in the wrong place, at the wrong time, and you knew it? That’s how I have sometimes felt.

What if….what if…. Your strongest attributes were perceived as weaknesses? Your ideas, which were progressive and insightful, were merely shrugged off? When does one say, “Time for a change?”

What if your sincerity is scoffed at and your devotion ignored? The essence of you, taken for granted because you divert the flow of others. Regardless of who’s wrong or right? Something or someone has to bend.

What if you step out of character to flow with the rest, and toss and turn at night, haunted by your lack of integrity? Lost and frightened, you tip toe through this surrealistic jungle until you begin to deteriorate.

What if there’s a place in the universe where your ideas are heard and revered? Your attributes respected and admired. Your character not judged. There could be such a place. Find it and go there even if only for a short time. You will know when you are there because “what if” will not exist, “it is” will be “all”.

 

The Inevitiable

An interesting word, inevitable
Scary at times to me
We perceive it as hard consequence
Instead of solid reality

If you really think about it
Everything that we do
Will have inevitable results
The outcome, at times is up to you

Of course there’s unexpected news
We receive from time to time
Which brings painful inevitability
Leaving you at the scene of fate’s crime

True, some of us do earn bad plight
Others are caught off guard
The inevitable is not subtle
It exists as fates trump card

We tend to associate the inevitable
With darkness and despair
Hard work produces good results, at times...
The inevitable can be fair

This is solid reality
We believe our mistakes are forgettable
But as history repeats itself
We should learn to respect the inevitable

 

3. The Gift of Life

It’s odd…….
When a person is gravely ill or injured,
They picture life ethically and morally,
And try to balance each
in their favor.
Weighing out their mistakes with their personal assets,
trying to justify why it shouldn’t
be them lying there and wondering,
“Will I recover?”
It’s a time when,
suddenly, all of life’s beauty
was something they were blind to,
and all of their mistakes were due to this lack of insight.
Finally they ask,
“Why me?
I couldn’t possibly deserve this
More than so - and – so!”
But soon they must face the truth and realize
how small they are in the scheme of existence.
It is through illness
or pain that we learn
we are all only human,
and there is nothing more valuable
than the gift of life.

 

Through the Motions

Together,
Forever
Always together
and yet, we're apart
The satisfaction of companionship
distorted by insecurity.
Sparked by indifference,
Fed by ego,
We go through the motions of love.
Comforted by familiarity,
Contented by routine,
Each lives as one.
One means alone.
An endless cycle of habits,
We're out in the cold.
Yet, we go through the motions of love.
Fondness of friendship,
Deciet of self.
Respectfully, we both come home.
To face our faults and weaknesses,
Turn our backs and run.
Back into ourselves we turn,
And go through the motions of love.

 

HereToday

Here today, gone tomorrow

Applicable if you're on holidays

or a business trip or something of that sort

How about trying here today

Here Today!

That's like singing happy praise

to being alive at that moment

Sometimes you'll be told be yourself

be happy or be with me

How about just "Be"

Just be here today

Here Today!

 

An Introspective and Sociological Look at Life as Humans

Why do people tent to pick their noses more often while driving in their vehicles? Why do people who are in debt believe that borrowing money gets them out of debt? Why is it that many people who claim they are atheist pray to God when they are in an airplane about to take off or land? Why don’t people realize that history and trends repeat themselves simply in the disguise of progress and modernization?

What does this say about humanity? It tells me that in general we are arrogant, self serving, frightened animals that abuse the privilege of intellect. Intellect through its many facets is our constant ally and worst foe. I know there is a God because nothing else could create such perfect imperfection. The only issue which overshadows mankind’s capabilities are his inabilities. The failure to balance spiritual existence with his world environment constantly creates and magnifies the irony. Man’s fervor to improve the world is also destroying it. A constant catch 22 with a twist. Don’t mistake this as a pessimistic outlook. It is simply a whimsical overview of a personally larger undertaking.

The insight I do gain however is of personal aid to myself. It helps me understand my path and direction and where they fit into the scheme of life for these fast times. I believe, my friends…this….We are here to establish peace of mind as best we can. Peace of mind comes through self awareness and acceptance here and now for tomorrow and thereafter. It becomes a more powerful vehicle when two people can work towards this together. We are meant to have mates. For the majority of people, that is part of Nature’s plan. Unfortunately, in this day and age there is a misconception about the notion of being “compatible” with one’s mate. The formula for true compatibility in friendship or a bonding relationship is:

Positive attitude
Open communication
Spirituality and Faith

When these qualities are common practice, a couple can be enroute to peace of mind which can be amplified with their wisdom. This is my belief - The bottom line!!!

 

Crossroads to Eden

There is many a person
In this world of late
Who sidesteps through life
Yet they think they walk straight

Lost in image
Satisfying their needs
Sidestepping the truth
Whilst they cast their seeds

Proudly they stand
Eyeing all that’s been planted
But maintaining life’s garden
Has been taken for granted

But heed this warning
‘Bout the seeds you sow
In the garden you’ve planted
Weeds also can grow

And whilst you sidestep
Through your garden rows
You step on the plants
Thus their rooting is slowed

Weak in spirit
You won’t dig the weeds
Too busy to water
You forget your crop’s needs

They’ll come a time
Due to your own neglect
Your crop will wither
Leaving weeds erect

So again you’ll sidestep
Choosing to leave
Looking for new land
In search of reprieve

The road is familiar
You’ve walked it before
You’ll swear that you have
You won’t be quite sure

Then comes the reminder
Of past seeds you sowed
Your journey brings you
To face the crossroads

For those who’ve walked straight
Removing their weeds
When comes time for new land
The crossroads will lead

But so many others
Moving on being clever
Won’t find the right roads
They’ll be lost forever

Their roads will lead them
Back to their garden
Being stubborn they’ll pass
Whilst their soul starts to harden

Soon they will tire
Then hungry and beaten
They’ll watch others stride
To their garden of Eden

Walk straight through your garden
Keep all the weeds hoed
Eat well during harvest
Then face the crossroads

Souly Imagination

Dip into a jasmine fountain
Frolic through the licorice hills
Let your flowered trumpets sound
Put conscious thought on window sills

Swing along through concrete webbing
Freely soar with silken wings
Let your head saunter alone
Forget all tangible things

Turn a valley inside out
Kiss Mother Nature’s feet
Paint the sea with metal
Let real and unreal meet

Wrestle with an ogre
Color evil pink
Conduct a pickle orchestra
Free your mind: don't think

Sip the nectar of a cloud
Stretch your arms forever
Eat boiled marbles with your eggs
Put your soul together

Disco dance with alter ego
Burn a tower made of gold
Bend sunlight until it ruptures
Put reality on hold

 

YOU’RE THE OBSTACLE

In life there’s many obstacles,
That you are bound to meet.
At times they seem impossible
To cope with or defeat.

But put things in perspective,
Imagine if you can,
Creating your own universe,
Planets, stars, then man.

Yes, it’s quite a wonder,
An act of God no doubt.
A tapestry of mystery,
We’ll not fully figure out.

Just take a look around you,
Consider what you see.
Imagine what it really took
To create earth’s majesty.

So speaking relatively,
Your obstacles are small.
Compared to those God overcomes,
Yours don’t exist at all.

 

Our Last Conversation

Where was I?
Oh yes…I remember.
Let’s move this along, shall we?
Interesting thoughts could transpire.
I could be wrong, we’ll see.

What I last remember,
Is that I was thinking…as usual,
About my current state of affairs.
You say it’s due to my outright refusal,
To find some strength in prayers.

What’s that you say?
When will I learn?
You’re being impertinent and rude!
When did I make my life your concern?
Your blunt remarks are at best crude!

Wait a minute!
Don’t leave…I’m sorry,
Sometimes the truth can hurt.
I have to admit I’m starting to worry.
Yes, I know there’re issues I skirt.

Alright…Alright!
Fine…mind if I speak.
At this point there’s not much I can say.
What you’re saying is my spirit is weak
And to strengthen it, prayer is a way.

I ask you.
If…just saying if…
If I try prayer to find resolution
Am I not expecting an unwarranted gift?
Does prayer give me spiritual restitution?

I’ll say this.
I need something …anything.
Right or wrong, I’m being forced by desperation.
So…you’re off, well sometime give me a ring.
I’ll tell you what’s changed since our last conversation.

 

Humiliation Is

1-Humiliation is:
- admitting mistakes
- asking for breaks
-doing what it takes
to get by
2-Humiliation is:
-sensations of pain
-feeling insane
-or losing again
so you cry
3-Humiliation is:
-getting divorced
-or being forced
-living undernourished
you could die
4-Humiliation is:
-being ignored
-your lover is bored
-things you can’t afford
just sigh
5-Humiliation is:
-total desperation
-lack of inspiration
-stubborn isolation
if you lie
6-Humiliation is:
-any addiction
-notice of eviction
-judicial conviction
they ask why?
7-Humiliation is:
-FOOD FOR SPIRITUAL GROWTH!

 

BEWARE OF THE CHAMELEON

Beware of the Chameleon
Harmless as they seem
Adapting at convenience
They bland with any scene

The ultimate survivors
Transition is their pride
They hunger right beside you
Yet feel no need to hide

Beware of the chameleon
They know beware of you
Instinctively they shed their skin
So they can start anew

Confronted by adversity
If their escape should fail
They don’t stand and face the fight
They run and drop their tail.

“Cultured” Vagabond

Hi there! My name is Blah – de – blah.
Your’s names, what did you say”
I couldn’t understand you
Because you’ve turned to walk away.

Hey, it doesn’t matter much,
Yeah, I’ll move along,
But I’m not just anyone,
I’m a “Cultured” Vagabond.

Sometimes it can be unwise
To judge books by their cover.
If you would read me from page one,
There’s plenty to discover.

Wait! I know what’s on your mind.
Where the hell did he go wrong?
Don’t mistake me for a bum.
I’m a “Cultured” Vagabond.

I’ve missed out on the privilege
Of owning house and car.
I don’t have a bank account.
My bank is in the bar.

But speaking from experience.
Uh-huh that I can do.
I’ve seen and done so many things.
I’ll list just a few.

I used to live in Hollywood.
I’ve traveled cross all seas.
Stayed in dream homes by the beach.
Dined with Royalty.

Philosophized with mystic folk
And skied many a mountain
I’ve drummed all night with native friends.
I’ve sipped from champagne fountains.

I’ve explored the pyramids.
Drank fresh water with a fawn.
So don’t think I’m just anyone
I’m a “Cultured” Vagabond.

I’ve viewed great art throughout the world.
I gigoloed in Spain.
Hunted food with bow and arrow.
Travelled Europe on a train.

I’ve tried illicit’s now and then
But please don’t take me wrong.
I’d like to learn all the facts of life.
I’m a “Cultured” Vagabond.

He’s not either brain or brawn.
He’s a “Cultured” Vagabond.
He may be napping on your lawn
But that’s the “Cultured” Vagabond.

 

QUANTUM DREAM BABBLE

Turn it on…
Dammit! Turn in on…
That’s better
A blast of light shooting
In every direction.
Past infinity…
Past forever…
Passing through life like…
Like what?
Like I pass through life.
Like life passes through me.
Either or…
Pure energy in motion with
No particular destination.
No true patterns are visible.
Yet its existence is structured.
It’s source…
Well it looks black, but
It is probably invisible light.
Total darkness truly doesn’t exist.
There is always light.
It’s a perception faux pas.
Tune yourself to light and you’ll be tuned to infinity.
Beginning and End
Become irrelevant.
Past and Future
Become open doors.
Death proceeds life.
Energy is forever.

 

 

Picture This

In the beginning...there was the end.
In the end...there was the beginning.
The continuation of energy sparked by the energy of continuation.
A symbiotic collision birthing creation.
The beginning of completion.
The end of finality. The meeting of the suns.
As was before...as shall always be.

Blasts of light and substance reaching to forever with various trace elements
stopping along the way. It is the pattern of these trace elements that create magnetic force.
It is magnetic force that creates uniform energy.
It is uniform energy that creates a universe.

As one universe dies another is born.
As one universe is born another dies, as it is with life everywhere.
Continuation.
New galaxies
New dimensions stretching to forever.
We exist in a minuscule portion of this forever to feed the endless cycle.
Our planet, birthed of limitless energy feeds the continuum.
Continuum feeds the necessity of rebirth.

Life comes and goes as an expression of energy.
Therefore life tries to emulate the essence of energy.

Exist. Expand. Advance. Balance.
This creates the symbiotic relations of continuation of energy and the energy of
continuation.
You are a seed which will feed the birthing of universes reaching to forever.
You are forever part of the beginning and the end.

 

FUNNY THOUGHTS

I'll bet you that if I were to put as much energy into making tracks as I do covering them, I would own the worlds longest tracks without a doubt.

THE END

What a final word "end" is.

The end is near. Ooohhh ominous.

Will it finally end?

"Life versus bad habits."

Tune in tomorrow

 

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Seminar I

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